According to Michael Neill, via the daily audios for the first nine weeks of Creating The Impossible he shared with us everything he already knows about the creation process (by the way, in the past years the whole CTI program lasted eight weeks, this year it’s twelve) and there is nothing that participants are lacking at the moment. This week’s assignment for each of us is to create our own daily tips, to practice the process of accessing the creative source for the guidance.
Here is my first tip: Keep Going.
As someone who has a lot of experience of thirty-day challenges (taking photos, writing stories, improvising music, sharing photos, composing music), I know the typical dynamic of those 30-day projects: first week is exciting, second week is OK, and the third week is the actual challenge part: getting through the third week would mean going until the end.
I also know the typical source of my problems: weakly defined guidelines for daily plans. They would stretch as I observed successes of the first week, the amount of action and time devoted to the challenge would keep growing each day until it starts to interfere with other daily activities. Then, a stumble would often become an unrecoverable fall.
Creating the Impossible
My CTI project is creating a coaching practice that will be fully covering the expenses of a regular month (i.e. bringing around €1000-€1500 after tax per month, and meeting legal requirements).
The first month of the CTI was intensifying the practice: free-for-all coaching sessions to get as much experience as possible and develop my skills. The phrasing soon became “having as many conversations with people as possible”.
In December and January, I talked with 32 new people and a few friends, altogether gathering the total of 51.5 hours of 1-on-1 focused Skype/FT/phone conversations during these two months. In this period, 30 hours of coaching were initiated by others replying to my offers, plus additional hours with continuing clients or by my personal invitation. My total experience was measuring 44 hours of coaching conversations by the end of January.
For the second month of the CTI, I transitioned my practiced to the “Pay What You Want” model, and focused my coaching efforts on reaching out to people in my preferred audience (artists and people transforming education), offering to support them over weekly one-hour sessions. I had three people signed up, and enjoyed a month of incredible conversations.
Performing the “Creating Backwards” exercise (CTI day 20), I saw how job search activities would fit perfectly in the thread towards stabilizing my residence, registering my practice and doing paid coaching in a fully correct way.
However, I quickly realized that I had a hell lot of thinking about what the job search process is, how it should look like, and what possible outcomes are… Together with a constant stream of advices and directions from others, it seemed impossible to hear the voice of my inner guidance.
And then, I started also getting really disappointed with myself for postponing my art work (music composition and production, photography post-processing) “until after the CTI”…
With job search activities filling my days without much return, it was looking to me like I had been doing nothing for the CTI project, nothing for growing the practice, and nothing for my art. Needless to say, my enthusiasm levels kept going down, and down, and down – which was not very helpful for actively and effectively investing my efforts in “doing something”…
The CTI audio for day 62, “Owning Your Wellbeing”, led me to the following realization: I keep feeling immense amounts of shame whenever my inner guidance points me contrary to what I think my family or girlfriend want me to do…
It sounds like I am still oriented towards pleasing others, paying for it with my own suffering — which no one of the people I am trying to please actually wants. And then I end up blaming myself, either for overriding my inner guidance with following my understanding of the advices others give me, or for following my guidance at risk of displeasing/irritating/offending my dear ones. I’m really tired of that, it’s non-stop exhausting!
So, the daily tip for today is, as I mentioned, Keep Going. It builds on top of three components which discussed earlier in the CTI:
- Show up, and respond to what shows up. To create anything, it is required to show up, be present and put the work into doing your project. It is also important to notice what is happening in response to your efforts, what shows up in your awareness about the internal and external worlds, and correct your actions accordingly. (Reference: CTI days 15-20)
- “Muck about” if there is no evident action to do. If there is no clear action point, spend some time in the activities which are even slightly related to the project – read, contact someone, have a conversation, brainstorm – whatever! Soon you might find that a clear action point comes to your awareness – respond to it. (Reference: CTI day 11).
- Keep the momentum. Even if you know how more showing up and more putting effort usually helps to reach goals faster, you can’t always be 100% available for one project, plus there are times and periods of waiting for something to happen, for somebody to do their part of the game. Still, doing some things to keep the momentum rolling, staying active about your project, no matter how little progress is accomplished in one day, will make it much more likely that eventually you will get there. (Reference: CTI days 43-44).