I have to make a confession. Here it goes: I am tired of pleasing others, tired of fighting for someone else’s dream… and I am also tired of hiding my best work.
It does not necessarily mean that I have large archives of my work I have never shared (but I actually have), and it does not mean that what you can see in the archives here is downgraded (it is the best I was able to go with each contribution at the moment of making it). What I want to say is that I have been spending too much time with things other than making art (and here I’m following Seth Godin’s description of what “making art” means).
Even after I created LikzLife in the middle of 2013 as a place to host my creative expressions… Even after wrote to my mom in July of 2015 that making art has to be an essential part of my life… I gave away more than three months of my time and energy to something that nobody really cares of, in an attempt to please a few people and acquire their permission to leave that stuff behind.
The attempt did not work. Maybe it was never supposed to work. But at least now I have more data to respond to the question: “Would I more regret stopping it so close to the finish line or continuing it some more time?” You see, it does not really matter how close you are to the destination – you cannot estimate when you will arrive if what is happening in the moment is you are not moving at all, or moving away from it.
So, from now on, given the choice between making art and doing something that nobody cares about, I would prioritize making art. And yes, I am terrified about the prospects of it not working out financially. I am terrified of a possibility of “doing all the wrong things”, alienating my friends and family, and ending up on the street in the middle of nowhere. At the same time, I know that the chances of it actually happening in this kind of worst case scenario are quite low.
Having said the above, I would like to introduce you to a new project of mine: LikzLife Chronicles.
In the last days of 2015, I was contemplating the idea of a daily writing project. As January 1, 2016 came and was about to go, while nothing had been published, the idea transformed to an even better one :) I have already been keeping a journal since my attempt of making a turn in the direction of my life last summer (a paper jornal, that is). It has quite a lot of gaps in the periods of not making art at all. So my commitment would be to daily writing to this journal, and then making weekly reviews of its entries — starting this week!
The main focus of these reviews will be on developing of my personal understanding of the inside-out nature of human experience. Because of the nature of the project, I am planning to publish it in a slightly more private form, so if you would like to read issues of the LikzLife Chronicles, make sure to subscribe!