Would I like to achieve all my dreams but feel pressured the whole time I do it, or would I rather live a life of deep feeling and contentment with whatever I am to achieve?
This is a tricky question, because it is essentially pointing to a very common misunderstanding that causes so much pain and suffering for people.
Achieving our dreams as in checking them off some “bucket list” won’t necessarily bring us a deeper, richer experience of life.
At the same time, living a life of contentment and a deep feeling does not mean to be passive, it does not mean that we won’t achieve good things, or even great things.
For me, thinking of my dreams and desires and perceiving myself not doing very well about moving towards them has been resulting in thoughts of mental illness, of lack of my capabilities, and at some moment even in the ideas of me being incompatible with this world.
From the other side, deepening my understanding of the human experience and understanding that we do not control the outcomes, and that endlessly pressuring myself only decapacitates me, only renders me unable to move forward… It has been freeing me to be more of who I am. To let the life happen. To fight less and to live more.
That freedom brings more stillness, and in that stillness I am more receptive to the quiet voice of my personal inner wisdom. And that wisdom guides me to the right action at each moment. And those actions bring satisfaction. And they also bring results. Only the results matter less and less. Because it is that deeper feeling of the stillness that is so valuable. Because it is that stillness where love, peace, gratitude and kindness come from. And they keep on building on top of each other.
I don’t know which of my dreams I will achieve, and how I will achieve them… But I know that the deeper feeling is the space where miracles happen, and I am curious to see them coming.